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Posts tagged ‘grief sucks’

Random Thoughts

…in no particular order…

  • Even after sleeping all night, I am still exhausted
  • Grief sucks. It sucks the life right out of you.
  • Grief comes in so many different forms.
    • Grieving for a friend & the loss of a relationship, that was never really a true relationship
  • I brought a box home from the gym last night to pack John’s shirts in to mail to a friend to make us quilts.
  • I have no idea when I’ll get it to the post office.
  • I don’t even know HOW to mail a package – John always did it for me.
  • I need to call the attorney.
  • I need to get all the tax info into the kids’ FAFSAs. Ugh…
  • I talked to a friend last night that lost her husband 7.5 months before John died.
  • While it was good to talk to her, we both struggled to not cry. (She had just gone to a visitation for a 3 mo old baby – her late husband’s best friend’s niece.)
  • There are so many things I think about on the hour & half drive to take K to school (& back). Too bad I can’t remember them when I get home.
  • I want to feel like I’m living, rather than just passing time.
  • Peppermint mocha creamer is amazing.
  • I need to do a phone dump to get all my pics/vids off so I have space in my phone again.
  • I found another no-fly song – From the Ground Up by Dan & Shay.
  • On the other hand, I can listen to You Should Be Here by Cole Swindell – at least sometimes.
  • Two mornings in a row, I woke up with that song running thru my head.
  • I should make a list.
    • I should actually read & DO the list once I have it made.
  • I need to purge my closet. & the rest of my clothes. & the T’s clothes (although Taryn has been working on hers already.)
  • While I don’t want to do anything about it, I really don’t want to go on without John. It’s so, SO hard. I miss him so much.
  • I miss the conversations, his presence, his touch, his voice, his laugh, the plans & dreams. We were great dreamers. Not so great in the practical application.
  • I need to get life insurance. I don’t even know how to do that.
  • Grief sucks. 😥